On considering blogging (which would be easier if blogging wasn't such an awful word)

me: i don't want to write some annoying gringa shit about the poor, beautiful people of oaxaca.

i'm just not sure how to write without sounding like that.
or actually being that.
Cesar: i hear you
5 minutes
Cesar: that might be a good first entry -
me: maybe....
might just make me sound even more like that.
Cesar: hey... in case you haven't notice i'm a brown guy
me: yeah?
Cesar: so i imagine you have some thoughts about my peeps and i would love to hear them
me: i wasn't thinking of it like that at all.
Cesar: i just realized
that you might not be thinking of it like that
me: i wasn't even exactly thinking of the oaxaquenos as being much connected or similar to you personally, but maybe you feel differently?
Cesar: i don't. maybe i was just connecting with the MEXICAN id
see
there is so much to write about
me: perhaps.
maybe you'll be a character on my blog.
Cesar: cool
me: but if you're gonna be a character, you'll have to know that sometimes i'm gonna get it wrong.
Cesar: what do you mean?
me: misrepresent you.
Cesar: ok
i see
you can do an e-ethnography
me: well, i wouldn't go that far.
i don't even know what an ethnography is.
Cesar: a narrative
a story
a method
it's great - you're going to be embedded
me: see, you're talking about ethnography...
meanwhile i'm playing with the colors.

me: i'm afraid to write anything so public as a blog.
especially public to people i know.
i'm not sure why.